Seriously (and enter my sweepstakes!!!)

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I have a tendency to take myself very seriously (except when it comes to blog giveaways).  This serious-me has been happening lately.  In order to do this I must ignore things that are really quite serious like illnesses, death, depression, genocide… the list is very long, now that I think about it, but somehow I manage to do this and in the process, I start to believe that I am probably the only one with real problems.  I also distort or conveniently forget the yoga teachings that encourage balance, self-care and self-awareness and instead turn to a series of yoga-memes that say shit like, “make each day your masterpiece,” or “mind over matter” or “when I wake up in the morning, I never think of what I can’t do” and then I get annoyed because that stuff is annoying.  Since yoga isn’t helping which really is serious, I conclude that there is no simple solution to my problems and therefore my distress is appropriate and necessary because what else am I to do with all the serious stuff that I have to deal with?  I can’t just ignore it.  So it festers and I slip it food under the table and it just grows and gets bigger.

When I am weighed down with my own personal serious problems, I really appreciate people who have a sense of humor.  I like someone who acknowledges the how human it is to go through stuff and have reactions and then points out the relatable irreverent craziness of it all so I can laugh about it.  I know some wonderful funny people and I’m so grateful for the humor they bring into my life.

My friend, Miranda is one of them.  She has a great sense of humor, and once, she told me something cool about laughter.  She said that laughter is one way that we humans are able to discharge difficult emotion.  I’m going to say “over-serious” falls into this category.  The following information comes from what I can remember from a conversation we had 3-years ago about a peer counseling support group she participated in.  She said that in this modality* they describe 5 ways of discharging emotion from our human systems.  It’s a little fuzzy and I could call her, but I don’t want to so I’ll allow memory (smrti) and imagination (vikalpa) to work together on this one.   Here’s my list:

  1. crying
  2. talking
  3. laughing
  4. moving the body
  5. making sound

Laughter is one on the list!  Many of us have had the experience of laughing really hard at something that is actually quite serious.  I’m not talking about jokes that demean a person or a group of people or that are gross-out jokes or jokes that are all about sex (my tendency to be serious does come up in this arena, too.)  I’m talking about a clever, thoughtful and intelligent comedian who says something so true that I can relate, appreciate the humanity that s/he brings to the experience, and can’t help but laugh my ass off.   Like Louis CK or Tig Notaro or John Mulaney. They are hilarious.  Laughing does discharge “serious” from the system.  It helps it to move on through.

We do this work of discharging in yoga, too.  We can move our body and stir things up and breathe in ways that get things moving.  We’ve got that agni at our center that we can fire up through asana and pranayama practice and agni helps us to burn stuff that we need to release.  I have to admit that when I’m serious, I have to really pay attention to my asana practice so that I don’t get bogged down in alignment and vigilant effort and a struggle to achieve.  Sometimes this happens.  When I’m serious about problems I need music, spontaneous movement, loose clothes and pranayama.  Pranayama is so great for making space, feeling into the interior Amanda-landscape and discharging the unhelpful. It’s also good for just sitting with the difficult and serious stuff.  I also must keep up with the meditation. Though when serious strikes, all these other urgent matters arise and I find it difficult to sit and meditate at the end of my practice.  Maybe it’s just difficult to sit with serious.

I’m going to try to chill out, and not in a lazy way that lets me ignore the stuff that’s bugging me, but in a way that allows me to have balance and release and laughter in the midst of the serious.  There’s going to continue to be yoga and comedians (thank goodness for funny friends and youtube), blogging, time to dance and play with my girls.   It’s a good time to set forth this intention because IT’S ALMOST MY BIRTHDAY!!!! This year is going to be great.  I can feel it.

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*I decided to look up Miranda’s thing.  It’s actually called co-counseling and here’s how another writer describes the emotional discharge. 

Catharsis is a way of releasing distress from the mind-body and it can release in the following ways:

Grief in tears and sobbing,

Fear in trembling,

Anger in loud sound and storming movement,

Certain core or primal pains in screaming,

False shame and embarrassment in laughter

This sounds a little more legit than what I wrote and it doesn’t really include the kind of laughter I described above.  I guess this kind of laughter is that self-deprecating giggly laughter that we do when we don’t want anyone to ask more questions or look at us.  Even so, I really like this list because it puts all of these expressions of emotion into a category that is about healing and moving things through which is valuable because these are things that we often try to suppress.  We try to suppress them because it isn’t considered polite to do these things around very many people so we just don’t do them at all.  But what if something really grief-worthy happened and we sobbed.  Just like that.  We call up our peer, that we trust—maybe our yoga teacher or our friend or our mom, and we just full-out sob?  If we didn’t clamp down on the grief and hold all that shit in and let it fester and lay eggs and turn into a maggoty writhing clump of seriousness, then we’d be better off, for sure.

And trembling?  How often do we tremble?  Sometimes our nervous system gets a good tremble going, but I’m somewhat in touch with body things and self-expression and I can only think of one time that I was trembling uncontrollably from serious distress.  It was crazy.  There was nothing I could do about it.  But I wanted to.  There was part of me that wanted to shut it down because it was weird and scary.

Anger and yelling and storming around—I must admit, I suppress this less than the other things.  I do yell and storm around sometimes, and it usually comes up when my children do something horrible or really annoying.  But I always feel bad afterwards.  It’s not like I get to say, “that was awesome that I just screamed and stomped.  I just discharged a whole lot of stuff,” because my children are probably curled up in one little kitten-y ball crying and trembling their own mother-induced stress out.  I think if you make your kids tremble you probably just lost major mothering points.  On the final point, can we agree that we all could use more primal screaming?  Perhaps this could become my go-to discharge mode.  I bet the girls wouldn’t cry or be freaked out at all with that going on.

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16 thoughts on “Seriously (and enter my sweepstakes!!!)

  1. I would love a tongue scraper!!! Great post. Thanks for the reminder that we don’t have to take “stuff” so seriously. Let go

  2. You are a very thoughtful person, Amanda. Lots of good inquiry to consider here. I like the emotional discharge hypothesis – nice and mechanical. Makes sense. And we do want to be careful about transferring our discharges to our kids, or others. Good point. And since yoga is about shifting consciousness I’ll just add that I try not to employ asana and meditation as therapy – although that might work and it’s fine to do so. I try to see my practice as my more authentic state, and the emotional stuff as weather that will blow over. Another fine post, thanks. And Happy 100! Also… scraping my tongue makes me gag.

    1. These co-counseling ideas of discharging stuck and difficult emotion really captivated me when I heard about them. As Laurie says below, there is something primal and really deep-seeded/amygdala-related about the things in the list. Hmmmmm. I’m going to have to think more about your thoughts on “not employing asana/med a therapy.” I think of asana, more than meditation really, as a way to get into the body, to turn my attention inward, to my mind and body so that I can be present and aware of how my self is doing. Distracted? Annoyed? In pain? Feeling awesome? Most of the time, it just takes me a while to get ready for that quiet listening that meditation asks of me. I think of asana as a way that we come to be present with our body, thoughts, emotions (we can’t do it without our brain, senses, tissues, breath) and just take notice of what’s there. When I can make space for the emotional stuff to be there then I turn attention to another voice. So I guess I do use asana as therapy, of sorts… and in preparation for the other work of meditation. It’s a really interesting idea, Bharat. I’m going to give it some more thought.

      Tongue scraping tip: don’t reach so far back on the tongue. Just gently pull the scraper over the front part of the tongue (assuming there is part that doesn’t make you gag), and after 15-20 pulls, things start coming up and out! Phlegm. Oh yeah. Bacteria. Move on. And it gets peristalsis going so you can get going with that morning movement! Love that morning movement.

  3. What strikes me about the “release valves” for distress is just how primal they seem; they seem like natural reactions that logically feel like they shouldn’t be controlled or suppressed. It makes me think about babies and just how pure they are when they come into this world and how changed they become as they are taught (directly or indirectly) the “right” way to act. I know we have to be “grown ups”, but I can understand the need for these releases to happen and how suppression of any of these natural distress release valves could cause more distress for us mentally, physically, emotionally, and behaviorally. How confusing it all is to not act naturally!! We all need a little more “distress” release and a lot less cruise control of our mind, body and emotions!

    Thank you for the thought provoking post! Happy Birthday!!!

    1. Thanks for the Birthday wishes AND for your thoughtful reply. These do seem primal and so core, don’t they? And it takes a lot of effort to squash this kind of thing down, should it arise from a difficult and stressful experiences. Then what? If it is squashed down then it’s still in there somewhere and there’s still all this effort to keep it from coming up.

      “How confusing it all is to not act naturally!! We all need a little more “distress” release and a lot less cruise control of our mind, body and emotions!”
      I couldn’t agree more!

  4. Congratulations. It’s almost my one year anniversary since the birth of my blog and I’m excited. I can imagine how you feel!

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